My Cupcake is here!

Oooh this is a lovely day!

My dear Cupcake is at my place!

This is nice, nice, nice!

Hahahahahahahahahahaha!

A beautiful night...

The sky is crimson red, and rain is pelting down hard on the ground.

There are stray raindrops on the screen of my laptop.

Outside, the million trees that line the landscape around my block are swaying wildly to the momentum of the wind.

It is a beautiful night.

Just like a star across my sky...

You are like an unreachable star that shines bright from afar.

I struggle to find that promised silver lining in my cloud.

Years go by and it seems like everything has changed.

And yet it is still the same.

You are always a trillion steps ahead of me.

Confessions of a terrified late 20-somethinger

If my life is a movie screenplay and I am the screenwriter, I'm in serious trouble.

You see, somewhere along the line, I've lost the plot.

Everything started out promisingly enough.

For many years, I knew what the story was going to be like.

I knew what the protagonist (me) was gunning for in life, at work and everything else.

Yet, overnight, ok - over many days and nights or even years, without me consciously realising it, the significance of practically every issue and other leading characters in my life had changed.

Heck, even the significance of me in my very own life seemed to have undergone a major overhaul.

And as if having to re-work the screenplay from scratch isn't nerve-wrecking enough, I have no idea just how I would like the story to continue.

Saying that it's a terribly unsettling situation would be the understatement of the century.
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Having said that though, I am not afraid. Ok, I am afraid,
yet not a-f-r-a-i-d.

Am I still making sense to you?

Let me put it this way - this situation is doing a great job of keeping me awake at night, and it even has its ways of sneaking into my dreams such that I wake up to find my heart at the pit of my stomach most times.

However, and this is a big HOWEVER, I do know I am still going to get my story back on track someday - somehow.

Perhaps it's the confidence gained from how I had deal with myself in various previous similar-yet-somewhat-different situations.

Or maybe I just made up this belief in my subconscious mind to keep me sane.

Oh god...now that's a real scary thought.

Anyway. I know I will get everything straightened out again. It may take some time, but it will happen.

The plot may be a very different one. Or it may only have subtle changes that no one who had seen the original story could discern.

But I would know.

Whatever it may be in the end, it will be a movie where the soundtrack boasts stirring, cheery, uplifting numbers, and everyone will leave the theatre happy.

Because it will be a happy movie.

OMFG. I am a real drama queen.

生与死之间，多少时间

我们都知道自己不可能永远存在在这个世界上。

总有那么一天，会是我们活着的最后一天。

只是，我们都不会知道倒数会从什么时候开始。
即使我们一点都不稀罕长命百岁，即使我们时常都会很“潇洒” 地说自己也不希望活太久，可是我想我们没有一个人会真正希望在不是自然老死的状况下离开人世。

今天是6月20日。

去年的今天，一位年仅24岁的友人不幸在军训中途溺毙，走了。

那一天，也是我到Desaru度假的第一天。我启程的时间是早上9点左右。可是我却是独自一人在公司赶工至凌晨5点才托着疲惫的身躯回家收拾行李。抵达度假村的时间是大约中午12点30分。到了下午三点，我和朋友便雇了一辆德士往城里去。

我之所以会在一年后还那么清楚地记得所有时间的细节是因为到了大约傍晚时分，我接到了这位友人的死讯。而从那一刻开始，我便开始想很多。

在我的人生里，我是从那天凌晨5点就开始期待并倒数一个美丽假期的开始。

但对于我那位已过世的友人，他的人生旅程其实也已经在那个时候进入倒数最后一刻的阶段。

只是他一点也不知道，也没有可能会知道。

人生真的有很多的未知。。。也有很多事是在我们的掌控之外的。

所以我们都要尽力地活得充实，活得精彩，活得骄傲。

但也不是只为自己而活。。。也要为他人而活，为身边的家人和好朋友带来幸福和快乐。

这位友人 完全做到了。

可以这么说，他做人真得做得很成功。

虽然他的早逝很令人惋惜和遗憾，但是，至少他这一生没有白活。

Lionel, 我为你感到很骄傲。

为什么非要当林中之王？

大概从十年前起，我就一直很想重游动物园。

两个月前，我终于和好友们实现了我这个原本就一点都不难实现的愿望。

园中有很多逗趣可爱的小动物，但让我印象最深刻是一向以凶猛见称的老虎。

或许因为长期被饲养在“好吃好住” 及无须为江湖地位和保住小命而时时准备张牙舞爪的动物园里，老虎们在它们的院子里都表现出一副非常“与世无争”的样子。

他们时而为彼此抓痒，时而调皮地故意激怒对方，玩起追逐游戏。。。然后再“扑通” 一声双双跳进里小河里嘻戏。

它们似我家那两只善良可爱的巴哥狗。。。它们看来很快乐，很满足，很幸福。

有人说，野生动物应该属于大自然，不应该被“囚禁” 起来。

但是，若我那天见到的老虎们会说话，或许它们会说，“谁要回到大自然过那种有一餐，没一餐，活得过今天，不知道有没有明天的日子啊？！”

能够做林中之王当然威风，能够在一大片森林中自由自在地闯荡当然潇洒，可是。。。那样的生活也是一种生存游戏。天天活在高度戒备的状态中，不知什么时候会有什么敌人出现，不知谁能相信，谁会治自己于死地。。。这样的生活真的会快乐吗？

我想，动物园中的老虎或许偶尔会做个白日梦，幻想自己在森林中称王。

森林中的威猛虎爷们也或许会偶尔渴望过着平静安逸的日子。

这里特别为动物园中的老虎们献上一首改编自<<小人物的心声>>副歌的小曲子。。。

“我从来就不在乎/我是动物园里的老虎/无须为了午餐头破血流/想到森林的老虎辛辛苦苦/成天斗得血肉模糊/只为了林中之王的称呼”