Tuesday, June 26, 2007
My Cupcake is here!
Oooh this is a lovely day!
My dear Cupcake is at my place!
This is nice, nice, nice!
Hahahahahahahahahahaha!
A beautiful night...
The sky is crimson red, and rain is pelting down hard on the ground.
There are stray raindrops on the screen of my laptop.
Outside, the million trees that line the landscape around my block are swaying wildly to the momentum of the wind.
It is a beautiful night.
Monday, June 25, 2007
Just like a star across my sky...
You are like an unreachable star that shines bright from afar.
I struggle to find that promised silver lining in my cloud.
Years go by and it seems like everything has changed.
And yet it is still the same.
You are always a trillion steps ahead of me.
Sunday, June 24, 2007
Confessions of a terrified late 20-somethinger
If my life is a movie screenplay and I am the screenwriter, I'm in serious trouble.
You see, somewhere along the line, I've lost the plot.
Everything started out promisingly enough.
For many years, I knew what the story was going to be like.
I knew what the protagonist (me) was gunning for in life, at work and everything else.
Yet, overnight, ok - over many days and nights or even years, without me consciously realising it, the significance of practically every issue and other leading characters in my life had changed.
Heck, even the significance of me in my very own life seemed to have undergone a major overhaul.
And as if having to re-work the screenplay from scratch isn't nerve-wrecking enough, I have no idea just how I would like the story to continue.
Saying that it's a terribly unsettling situation would be the understatement of the century.
.
Having said that though, I am not afraid. Ok, I am afraid,
yet not a-f-r-a-i-d.
Am I still making sense to you?
Let me put it this way - this situation is doing a great job of keeping me awake at night, and it even has its ways of sneaking into my dreams such that I wake up to find my heart at the pit of my stomach most times.
However, and this is a big HOWEVER, I do know I am still going to get my story back on track someday - somehow.
Perhaps it's the confidence gained from how I had deal with myself in various previous similar-yet-somewhat-different situations.
Or maybe I just made up this belief in my subconscious mind to keep me sane.
Oh god...now that's a real scary thought.
Anyway. I know I will get everything straightened out again. It may take some time, but it will happen.
The plot may be a very different one. Or it may only have subtle changes that no one who had seen the original story could discern.
But I would know.
Whatever it may be in the end, it will be a movie where the soundtrack boasts stirring, cheery, uplifting numbers, and everyone will leave the theatre happy.
Because it will be a happy movie.
OMFG. I am a real drama queen.
Thursday, June 21, 2007
生与死之间，多少时间
我们都知道自己不可能永远存在在这个世界上。
总有那么一天，会是我们活着的最后一天。
只是，我们都不会知道倒数会从什么时候开始。
即使我们一点都不稀罕长命百岁，即使我们时常都会很“潇洒” 地说自己也不希望活太久，可是我想我们没有一个人会真正希望在不是自然老死的状况下离开人世。
今天是6月20日。
去年的今天，一位年仅24岁的友人不幸在军训中途溺毙，走了。
那一天，也是我到Desaru度假的第一天。我启程的时间是早上9点左右。可是我却是独自一人在公司赶工至凌晨5点才托着疲惫的身躯回家收拾行李。抵达度假村的时间是大约中午12点30分。到了下午三点，我和朋友便雇了一辆德士往城里去。
我之所以会在一年后还那么清楚地记得所有时间的细节是因为到了大约傍晚时分，我接到了这位友人的死讯。而从那一刻开始，我便开始想很多。
在我的人生里，我是从那天凌晨5点就开始期待并倒数一个美丽假期的开始。
但对于我那位已过世的友人，他的人生旅程其实也已经在那个时候进入倒数最后一刻的阶段。
只是他一点也不知道，也没有可能会知道。
人生真的有很多的未知。。。也有很多事是在我们的掌控之外的。
所以我们都要尽力地活得充实，活得精彩，活得骄傲。
但也不是只为自己而活。。。也要为他人而活，为身边的家人和好朋友带来幸福和快乐。
这位友人 完全做到了。
可以这么说，他做人真得做得很成功。
虽然他的早逝很令人惋惜和遗憾，但是，至少他这一生没有白活。
Lionel, 我为你感到很骄傲。
Monday, June 18, 2007
为什么非要当林中之王？
大概从十年前起，我就一直很想重游动物园。
两个月前，我终于和好友们实现了我这个原本就一点都不难实现的愿望。
园中有很多逗趣可爱的小动物，但让我印象最深刻是一向以凶猛见称的老虎。
或许因为长期被饲养在“好吃好住” 及无须为江湖地位和保住小命而时时准备张牙舞爪的动物园里，老虎们在它们的院子里都表现出一副非常“与世无争”的样子。
他们时而为彼此抓痒，时而调皮地故意激怒对方，玩起追逐游戏。。。然后再“扑通” 一声双双跳进里小河里嘻戏。
它们似我家那两只善良可爱的巴哥狗。。。它们看来很快乐，很满足，很幸福。
有人说，野生动物应该属于大自然，不应该被“囚禁” 起来。
但是，若我那天见到的老虎们会说话，或许它们会说，“谁要回到大自然过那种有一餐，没一餐，活得过今天，不知道有没有明天的日子啊？！”
能够做林中之王当然威风，能够在一大片森林中自由自在地闯荡当然潇洒，可是。。。那样的生活也是一种生存游戏。天天活在高度戒备的状态中，不知什么时候会有什么敌人出现，不知谁能相信，谁会治自己于死地。。。这样的生活真的会快乐吗？
我想，动物园中的老虎或许偶尔会做个白日梦，幻想自己在森林中称王。
森林中的威猛虎爷们也或许会偶尔渴望过着平静安逸的日子。
这里特别为动物园中的老虎们献上一首改编自<<小人物的心声>>副歌的小曲子。。。
“我从来就不在乎/我是动物园里的老虎/无须为了午餐头破血流/想到森林的老虎辛辛苦苦/成天斗得血肉模糊/只为了林中之王的称呼”
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
It's
out thereWhen us mere mortals are looking to join an online community to connect with the rest of the world, we get an enviable long list of choices like Friendster, Multiply, hi5 and such.
For the Really Rich & Fabulous set, they are quite content with just a single option - aSmallWorld.
A private online community of the world's jet-set elite, and renowned for its very restricted membership, aSmallWorld features an exclusive mix of business tycoons, American socialites, old-school family names, nouveau-riche newcomers and minor European royalty, and of course, celebrities.
For the Really Rich & Fabulous set, they are quite content with just a single option - aSmallWorld.
A private online community of the world's jet-set elite, and renowned for its very restricted membership, aSmallWorld features an exclusive mix of business tycoons, American socialites, old-school family names, nouveau-riche newcomers and minor European royalty, and of course, celebrities.
In other words, if you happen to find yourself invited to aSmallWorld (membership is strictly upon invitation by existing members), you are likely to find yourself two or three friends away from a direct connection wtih Herbert William Hoover IV - from the clan whose family name is synonymous with vacuum cleaners, Ivanka Trump, daughter of Mr. Donald "You're Fired" Trump, and Quentin Tarantino, among other big personalities.
Your friends' profiles will typically feature photos taken at shoots for renowned magazines too, probably Vogue. And instead of in-your-face ads that say "Lose 30 lbs in 30 days", you will be greeted by sleek advertising from companies that want to introduce a gorgeous new toy to your existing yatch collection.
Just to illustrate the point further, a typical question on the forum will be along the line of, "Is Dior having its St Tropez party again this year?". Note: This will be posted by people who are not asking out of plebian curiosity, but real insiders who are expecting a personalised invitation.
All these may take a little bit of getting-used-to, of course. Especially if you have grown very accustomed to friends who insist on assuming online identities like TechnoFreak, Barbie or DarthVader, complete with profiles that see them giving a death-stare while straddling their bikes, or looking up coyly at camera-phones held 15cm above eye-level.
There's no hurry, though. Most of us will probably need a few lifetimes before we get anywhere near anyone who has the clout to invite us into this inner sanctum. Well, unless Ivanka Trump happens to descend in Singapore for a backpacking trip (just to experience the simple life, you know), get lost in Chinatown, and form a strong girly bond with me when I happen to be at the right place and at the right time to offer some assistance.
Oh forget it - I am happy with Friendster.
P.S. Obviously, I couldn't go beyond the Welcome Page of aSmallWorld.net. But from what little I had seen, I can't help but ask - although money can't buy you taste, surely it can buy you the services of a good web designer?
Ivanka Trump Quentin Tarantino
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Becky Bloomwood is back with a baby!
Goody goody...one of my favourite characters in the Land of Chick-Lit is back with the latest must-have fashion accessory - a baby!
Though I have waved goodbye to most of my shopping desires, there's no question that dear Becky Bloomwood's hilarious antics alone will provide me hours of delightful escapism. It helps that she now has a near picture-perfect life too (Read: A filthy rich, drop-dead gorgeous, and extremely devoted husband).
*Dreamy sigh*
It's time to hit the bookstore!
Click for an excerpt of Shopaholic & Baby from Sophie Kinsella's Official Website
P.S. Yea yea yea, I know it is a cotton-candy read that will never be in the running for a Nobel Prize in Literature...but nobody has to be all-serious all the time! Life is not meant to be that punishing. And oh, if you think her Shopaholic series is pure fluff, then perhaps you should try your hand at writing a novel that debuts at #1 on New York Times hardcover fiction list! ; )
Saturday, April 21, 2007
<<白色巨塔>> -- 佳句
台湾以医院和医生为故事背景的剧集 <<白色巨塔>> 的对白充满了让我有共鸣的佳句。一点都不像新加坡剧集里那些典型的台词。句句生活化，却又还很优雅，也很有画面，很真实。(故事大纲)
“我们每个人都背负着过去曾经犯下的错误活着，我们必须学习跟自己最不堪的那部分相处，因为生命没有办法重来，因为我们是大人。”
~ 我的人生中没有太不堪的部分，但也确实曾经犯下许多让自己深感后悔的大大小小的错误。“因为生命没有办法重来” 这句话，我也曾经说过。。。我后悔自己犯下了一些错误，但是我无论再怎么后悔，也无法让时间倒转，回到过去去更改历史。唯一能做的，就只有谨记着得到的教训，不再让自己犯回一样的错，并用以后的时间来补救，改进。
“你年纪越大，你就眼看着命运，一样一样地选择你。你还能有什么选择，人生就是这样，过了某一个点，就再也回不去了。”
~ 很认同，但也绝对不肯屈服。只能提醒自己，每一个选择和决定，都要思考清楚，尽量不要让自己走到不能再回头的那个点。即使到了那个点，也还是不能屈服，不能轻言放弃。
“有时候遇到一些事情，我自问所有角度我都想过了，而且该用力的地方我也用力了，我也努力做到了，我就觉得没有问题了，这个事情搞定，一切都会很好。但是不一定，只要老天爷一个弹指，就不一样了，什么事情都不一样了。”
~ 这或许就是人生的无奈。。。但是，怨老天爷也没用。要嘛，就以正面，积极的态度和老天爷拼一拼。否则就以正面，积极的态度接受，然后重新出发。
“真正的勇气是用来追求那种简单的幸福。。。当我们在做我们想做的事，天堂就是我们一伸手就能碰到的地方。如果你要幸福，你要坚定地伸出手，去做你想要做的事，去爱你身边最爱的人。不要等，因为幸福从来没有离开过，只是你没有看见。”
~ 我们往往在拼了命追求幸福时，都忘了问自己幸福究竟是什么。幸福真有那么难求吗？又或则只是我们一直都不敢相信简单就是幸福？要愿意满足于简单，真的需要勇气。我也在努力地在培养那股勇气。
“我们每个人都背负着过去曾经犯下的错误活着，我们必须学习跟自己最不堪的那部分相处，因为生命没有办法重来，因为我们是大人。”
~ 我的人生中没有太不堪的部分，但也确实曾经犯下许多让自己深感后悔的大大小小的错误。“因为生命没有办法重来” 这句话，我也曾经说过。。。我后悔自己犯下了一些错误，但是我无论再怎么后悔，也无法让时间倒转，回到过去去更改历史。唯一能做的，就只有谨记着得到的教训，不再让自己犯回一样的错，并用以后的时间来补救，改进。
“你年纪越大，你就眼看着命运，一样一样地选择你。你还能有什么选择，人生就是这样，过了某一个点，就再也回不去了。”
~ 很认同，但也绝对不肯屈服。只能提醒自己，每一个选择和决定，都要思考清楚，尽量不要让自己走到不能再回头的那个点。即使到了那个点，也还是不能屈服，不能轻言放弃。
“有时候遇到一些事情，我自问所有角度我都想过了，而且该用力的地方我也用力了，我也努力做到了，我就觉得没有问题了，这个事情搞定，一切都会很好。但是不一定，只要老天爷一个弹指，就不一样了，什么事情都不一样了。”
~ 这或许就是人生的无奈。。。但是，怨老天爷也没用。要嘛，就以正面，积极的态度和老天爷拼一拼。否则就以正面，积极的态度接受，然后重新出发。
“真正的勇气是用来追求那种简单的幸福。。。当我们在做我们想做的事，天堂就是我们一伸手就能碰到的地方。如果你要幸福，你要坚定地伸出手，去做你想要做的事，去爱你身边最爱的人。不要等，因为幸福从来没有离开过，只是你没有看见。”
~ 我们往往在拼了命追求幸福时，都忘了问自己幸福究竟是什么。幸福真有那么难求吗？又或则只是我们一直都不敢相信简单就是幸福？要愿意满足于简单，真的需要勇气。我也在努力地在培养那股勇气。
Friday, April 20, 2007
曾经重要的一切，原来并不重要。。。
不知道从哪一天，哪一刻开始，我对人生的看法再也不一样了。
或许是当身边的朋友，很年轻的朋友们，相继在一夜之间与世长辞。
或许是当我一而再地听闻身旁认识的人，一直都蛮健康的人，突患重病。
人生的无常让我很害怕。。。真的很害怕。
什么时候会发生什么事，似乎不太由得我们来决定。
但我不是悲观。
相反地，这一切让我开始思索人生中究竟什么最重要，什么才是最值得我们劳心费神地去追求，什么最值得我们去珍惜。
一度为了想在事业上拼出成绩，得到满足感和认同，可以废寝忘食，以健康来做交换，也因为压力大而放纵自己对家人发脾气。最后当自己撑得最辛苦时，还是依赖着家人无条件的支持和关怀才过了关。
我还是很愿意为事业打拼，还是不介意因事业而活在气压锅里头，还是会心甘情愿地放弃睡眠。
但是，今天，这一切都要有限度。
我明白很多时候有些事是不能尽如人意的。我所热爱的每一项工作都不太可能允许我对付出的时间和精神设限。
所以我必须学习如何放轻松但却不松懈。
可是如果真的得做出选择，我还是会选择活得自在，活得健康。
当然还有家人。。。
我好爱我的家人，虽然偶尔还是会大吵大闹。
对我而言，家人和健康一样，都排第一位。
我和家人的感情一向都很好。但是，一直以来，都似乎没有很认真地珍惜过，直到最近。
以往，若在工作之余有时间，一定会很想找朋友去喝两杯。
现在，我大多会更想回家和妈妈，爸爸，还有两只超可爱的小狗们聚一聚。
就这么三个人和两只狗，开开心心地度过时光。
我也是时候和姐姐一家，还有阿姨们和表哥表弟们多通电话或一起用餐什么的。
有时候觉得很可笑 - - 我们很愿意花很多的时间和精神去经营和上司，客户，同事和朋友，甚至邻居，的关系。到最后，和家人之间的感情却淡薄得很。
上司，客户，同事，朋友和邻居都很重要，但说到底，也是能被取代的。
家人，尤其是父母，若失去了或来不及珍惜，或许就是一辈子的遗憾。
其实，对人重要的，往往也是能让我们觉得快乐的。
只要懂得分清楚什么才是重要的，快乐，其实很简单。
或许是当身边的朋友，很年轻的朋友们，相继在一夜之间与世长辞。
或许是当我一而再地听闻身旁认识的人，一直都蛮健康的人，突患重病。
人生的无常让我很害怕。。。真的很害怕。
什么时候会发生什么事，似乎不太由得我们来决定。
但我不是悲观。
相反地，这一切让我开始思索人生中究竟什么最重要，什么才是最值得我们劳心费神地去追求，什么最值得我们去珍惜。
一度为了想在事业上拼出成绩，得到满足感和认同，可以废寝忘食，以健康来做交换，也因为压力大而放纵自己对家人发脾气。最后当自己撑得最辛苦时，还是依赖着家人无条件的支持和关怀才过了关。
我还是很愿意为事业打拼，还是不介意因事业而活在气压锅里头，还是会心甘情愿地放弃睡眠。
但是，今天，这一切都要有限度。
我明白很多时候有些事是不能尽如人意的。我所热爱的每一项工作都不太可能允许我对付出的时间和精神设限。
所以我必须学习如何放轻松但却不松懈。
可是如果真的得做出选择，我还是会选择活得自在，活得健康。
当然还有家人。。。
我好爱我的家人，虽然偶尔还是会大吵大闹。
对我而言，家人和健康一样，都排第一位。
我和家人的感情一向都很好。但是，一直以来，都似乎没有很认真地珍惜过，直到最近。
以往，若在工作之余有时间，一定会很想找朋友去喝两杯。
现在，我大多会更想回家和妈妈，爸爸，还有两只超可爱的小狗们聚一聚。
就这么三个人和两只狗，开开心心地度过时光。
我也是时候和姐姐一家，还有阿姨们和表哥表弟们多通电话或一起用餐什么的。
有时候觉得很可笑 - - 我们很愿意花很多的时间和精神去经营和上司，客户，同事和朋友，甚至邻居，的关系。到最后，和家人之间的感情却淡薄得很。
上司，客户，同事，朋友和邻居都很重要，但说到底，也是能被取代的。
家人，尤其是父母，若失去了或来不及珍惜，或许就是一辈子的遗憾。
其实，对人重要的，往往也是能让我们觉得快乐的。
只要懂得分清楚什么才是重要的，快乐，其实很简单。
西天取完了经，东边应该还有。。。Part 2
上个星期的今天，我终于结束了近五年的西游记。
一开始的时候，从来没想过这段旅程竟然会持续那么久。
去年，一位多年的好战友也离开了我们熟悉的避风港到外头去闯。。。就像五月天在<<孙悟空>>里所唱的一样“西天取完了经，东边应该还有"。
现在是轮到我去探索东边奥妙的时候了。
巧的是，今天刚刚发现电视台最近正在下午重播新传媒连续剧<<东游记>>。
对于离开，我百感交集。
只是，大概也没谁看得出来。因为一直到我在那避风港的最后一天，我还是一贯的疯疯颠颠，一副不把离开放在心上，满不在乎的样子。
我不是难过。。。因为我确实很想很想很想离开。
我也不是舍不得。。。因为除了在那里得到的工作经验和非常难的“我们是同事，也是好朋友”似的友情，没什么好舍不得的。何况，工作经验和友情，是绝对带得走的。
只是，那个避风港，毕竟是一个我待了近五年的地方。
除了周末，公共假期，病假和年假以外，那是我近五年来，天天报到的地方。
算起来，我二子头的岁月，有一大半是在那里度过的。
22岁踏进了避风港，27岁离开。
把脑海里的记忆翻一翻，还能清楚的看见自己刚刚报到时的青涩模样。就连当时心理在想的话，现在仿佛也还能听得见。一切似乎很近，但却很遥远。
这些年里，人生中没什么大不了和了不起的事发生。但是，东凑西凑地，许多小事 - 无论是关于事业或生活 - 都一点一滴地慢慢让我变得不一样了。我说不上来这是件好事或坏事。只知道，不一样了。
我还挺怀念以前的自己。
或许这就是为什么离开避风港让我百感交集。
我向一段岁月，向某一个自己，说再见了。
一开始的时候，从来没想过这段旅程竟然会持续那么久。
去年，一位多年的好战友也离开了我们熟悉的避风港到外头去闯。。。就像五月天在<<孙悟空>>里所唱的一样“西天取完了经，东边应该还有"。
现在是轮到我去探索东边奥妙的时候了。
巧的是，今天刚刚发现电视台最近正在下午重播新传媒连续剧<<东游记>>。
对于离开，我百感交集。
只是，大概也没谁看得出来。因为一直到我在那避风港的最后一天，我还是一贯的疯疯颠颠，一副不把离开放在心上，满不在乎的样子。
我不是难过。。。因为我确实很想很想很想离开。
我也不是舍不得。。。因为除了在那里得到的工作经验和非常难的“我们是同事，也是好朋友”似的友情，没什么好舍不得的。何况，工作经验和友情，是绝对带得走的。
只是，那个避风港，毕竟是一个我待了近五年的地方。
除了周末，公共假期，病假和年假以外，那是我近五年来，天天报到的地方。
算起来，我二子头的岁月，有一大半是在那里度过的。
22岁踏进了避风港，27岁离开。
把脑海里的记忆翻一翻，还能清楚的看见自己刚刚报到时的青涩模样。就连当时心理在想的话，现在仿佛也还能听得见。一切似乎很近，但却很遥远。
这些年里，人生中没什么大不了和了不起的事发生。但是，东凑西凑地，许多小事 - 无论是关于事业或生活 - 都一点一滴地慢慢让我变得不一样了。我说不上来这是件好事或坏事。只知道，不一样了。
我还挺怀念以前的自己。
或许这就是为什么离开避风港让我百感交集。
我向一段岁月，向某一个自己，说再见了。
P.S. 致亲爱的前同事/好朋友们：能够在一间公司里，结识那么多位不搞心机，不勾心斗角，能够交心的好朋友是一个难的的福气。。。我非常的珍惜，也非常的感谢！这趟旅程，最大的收获，就是你们！多谢了，Ah Kiat, Silly Shelley, Weiying, Mandy, Lyonne, Emily, Karen, Amanda, Ashley, Andy, Leslie and Daniel!!!
Thursday, December 14, 2006
There goes my laptop
The premature death of my laptop is probably the best illustration of "Everything happens for a reason".
Now I have a perfectly legitmate excuse (to myself) to get a MacBook.
But before that, I will have to do without my connection to the world when I am not at work for a little while.
Bumper.
Now I have a perfectly legitmate excuse (to myself) to get a MacBook.
But before that, I will have to do without my connection to the world when I am not at work for a little while.
Bumper.
Sunday, December 10, 2006
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
遗失的美好之 - 单纯
看了几集的<<冲上云霄>>之后，心中涌现了一些感触。
其中，尤其感叹“单纯”是多么容易遗失的人性特质。
这部连续剧应该也有至少一两年的历史了吧。而在这段日子里，在戏中饰演一名21岁，开朗，知足及乐天的机场地勤人员胡杏儿，也从香港电视台的小家碧玉晋升成为当家花旦之一。对于近来越来越深感自己无论是心境或躯体都正在急速老化的我来说，她在戏里那天真烂漫的气质 - 尤其是眼神 - 是无比的让人羡慕及嫉妒。
但是经过戏末那几年的洗礼后，我发现如今在杂志或报章里看到的她，眼神多了些深沉，而单纯的味道却已近乎不复存在。即使仍然是在戏剧里扮演年轻及讨喜的角色，但就是不一样了。
成长的过程 - 身份，地位，和经历的不同 - 难道非得让夺走可贵的单纯吗？
小孩的快乐来自单纯，长大了却恨不得快点抛掉单纯来换得所谓的智慧与成就。
不值得。。。但在单纯是被视为一种性格和处世缺陷的人生阶段里，也似乎没的选择。
其中，尤其感叹“单纯”是多么容易遗失的人性特质。
这部连续剧应该也有至少一两年的历史了吧。而在这段日子里，在戏中饰演一名21岁，开朗，知足及乐天的机场地勤人员胡杏儿，也从香港电视台的小家碧玉晋升成为当家花旦之一。对于近来越来越深感自己无论是心境或躯体都正在急速老化的我来说，她在戏里那天真烂漫的气质 - 尤其是眼神 - 是无比的让人羡慕及嫉妒。
但是经过戏末那几年的洗礼后，我发现如今在杂志或报章里看到的她，眼神多了些深沉，而单纯的味道却已近乎不复存在。即使仍然是在戏剧里扮演年轻及讨喜的角色，但就是不一样了。
成长的过程 - 身份，地位，和经历的不同 - 难道非得让夺走可贵的单纯吗？
小孩的快乐来自单纯，长大了却恨不得快点抛掉单纯来换得所谓的智慧与成就。
不值得。。。但在单纯是被视为一种性格和处世缺陷的人生阶段里，也似乎没的选择。
何况，单纯往往是在每一天的纷纷扰扰中，不知不觉遗失的。
P.S. 我常认为，真正出卖人类年龄的罪魁祸首不是眼睛周围的皱纹，而是咱们的眼神。就好比一位拥有好演技的30来岁演员不论化上再怎么棒的老妆也无法真正神似一位60岁老父/妇 - 就因为眼神。
Saturday, October 14, 2006
Cherish life and love - for they can be lost in a heartbeat
My Primary School playmate held her wedding last Saturday.
And because we had lost touch for a long time till we finally met once before her wedding, I did not experience the usual excitement I have when attending most weddings, for I do not know the slightest bit of history of her courtship with her husband.
However, when pictures of their courting days started flashing on those two huge screens in the banquet hall, I found myself silently and consistently chanting, "Let them be happy, healthy and true to each other way into the future".
I know that makes me seem like one extremely maudlin weirdo, but those wishes came naturally and sincerely, because - let's face it - love and marriage are such fragile items these days, and life is so unpredictable.
Especially when a friend of mine had a huge row with her boyfriend just a day before the wedding and freaked me out big-time with the ensuing drama, one which jolted me wide awake from my deep slumber and saw me making a mad dash to the hospital.
While another acquaintance passed away as a result of a failed lap-band surgery to lose weight, mere months after he got married.
Ok now I have gone from maudlin to morbid.
Anyway, the point is, many recents events have made me realised just how fragile and unpredictable everything is, and nothing should ever be taken for granted.
Night.
And because we had lost touch for a long time till we finally met once before her wedding, I did not experience the usual excitement I have when attending most weddings, for I do not know the slightest bit of history of her courtship with her husband.
However, when pictures of their courting days started flashing on those two huge screens in the banquet hall, I found myself silently and consistently chanting, "Let them be happy, healthy and true to each other way into the future".
I know that makes me seem like one extremely maudlin weirdo, but those wishes came naturally and sincerely, because - let's face it - love and marriage are such fragile items these days, and life is so unpredictable.
Especially when a friend of mine had a huge row with her boyfriend just a day before the wedding and freaked me out big-time with the ensuing drama, one which jolted me wide awake from my deep slumber and saw me making a mad dash to the hospital.
While another acquaintance passed away as a result of a failed lap-band surgery to lose weight, mere months after he got married.
Ok now I have gone from maudlin to morbid.
Anyway, the point is, many recents events have made me realised just how fragile and unpredictable everything is, and nothing should ever be taken for granted.
Night.
Dawn Leng + Dementia
This is hilarious.
Out of mere boredom, I googled myself just to see how many other "Dawn Leng" are there in the universe, and for a hint of the kind of world they inhabit.
Apparently, there are not that many around...at least not in cyberspace.
Then I came across this sentence, "Hello! This Dawn Leng here...I am too lazy to apply for a Blogger account thus chose to post this "anonymously. I read this in yesterday's Lianhe Zaobao' supplement..."
Another "Dawn Leng" right here in Singapore?!
This I got to see!
I clicked on the site and that sentence turns out to be a comment posted to a female blogger.
On and on I read, and there's stuff like "Berlin" mentioned in it, which intrigued me, so I ploughed on.
And then suddenly, it all came back to me - and you would probably have guessed it by now, it was posted by yours truly!
I can't believe how preachy I sound...but then again, it sounds like me! ; )
Here is the entry:
"Hello! This Dawn Leng here...I am too lazy to apply for a Blogger account thus chose to post this "anonymously".
I read this in yesterday's Lianhe Zaobao' supplement: Berlin was completely ravaged and devastated during the World War II – but that also opened up the opportunity for her to be rebuilt in various whole new ways.
Like the quote you placed in this blog article, success is never final and failure is never fatal. A loss of opportunity might just be the thing that opens up new avenues of possiblities for you – possibilities that never once occurred to you or might have occurred to you but never taken seriously as you were busy being stuck somewhere.
Now that life is temporarily free and easy for you, you can afford some time to really think about what you want or where you intend to head.
Don't be in too much of a hurry, but be careful not to drag your feet subconsciously too. As long as you are fully aware of what you are doing (and fully aware that you are really NOT finding excuses for yourself), you shouldn't have to bother with others' "loafer" comments. Sometimes, a really good break is really essential to moving on, but I still maintain this – as long as you are really sure you know what you are doing.
According to the article, Berlin is today the very unique, creative and bustling capital of Germany. It is a capital that is very different to the concepts that most people have of capitals – not everyone would be in love with her, but those who can appreciate what she has to offer, falls truly, madly and deeply in love.
This is the lesson the Berlin article has taught me...doom is really the beginning of boom (if you possess the right attitude and regularly check that the attitude in question is indeed still moving you in the direction you want), and that if you intend to be different, you will have to be prepared to deal with the fact that you will invite controversy (not necessarily in a good way all the time), and not everyone will love you (but those who do truly do).
And last but not least, even if your so-called chosen direction is "unpredictable and different", you still have got to know exactly what you are doing (even if it may seems to others you are just making a mad dash to nowhere).Heehee sorry if I got too preachy...hahaha ignore me if it sounds totally irrelevant to you...I am just triggered off by how nicely your current situation fits in with the lesson I learnt from the Berlin article and thought it would be nice to share it with you."
Hahaha.
Out of mere boredom, I googled myself just to see how many other "Dawn Leng" are there in the universe, and for a hint of the kind of world they inhabit.
Apparently, there are not that many around...at least not in cyberspace.
Then I came across this sentence, "Hello! This Dawn Leng here...I am too lazy to apply for a Blogger account thus chose to post this "anonymously. I read this in yesterday's Lianhe Zaobao' supplement..."
Another "Dawn Leng" right here in Singapore?!
This I got to see!
I clicked on the site and that sentence turns out to be a comment posted to a female blogger.
On and on I read, and there's stuff like "Berlin" mentioned in it, which intrigued me, so I ploughed on.
And then suddenly, it all came back to me - and you would probably have guessed it by now, it was posted by yours truly!
I can't believe how preachy I sound...but then again, it sounds like me! ; )
Here is the entry:
"Hello! This Dawn Leng here...I am too lazy to apply for a Blogger account thus chose to post this "anonymously".
I read this in yesterday's Lianhe Zaobao' supplement: Berlin was completely ravaged and devastated during the World War II – but that also opened up the opportunity for her to be rebuilt in various whole new ways.
Like the quote you placed in this blog article, success is never final and failure is never fatal. A loss of opportunity might just be the thing that opens up new avenues of possiblities for you – possibilities that never once occurred to you or might have occurred to you but never taken seriously as you were busy being stuck somewhere.
Now that life is temporarily free and easy for you, you can afford some time to really think about what you want or where you intend to head.
Don't be in too much of a hurry, but be careful not to drag your feet subconsciously too. As long as you are fully aware of what you are doing (and fully aware that you are really NOT finding excuses for yourself), you shouldn't have to bother with others' "loafer" comments. Sometimes, a really good break is really essential to moving on, but I still maintain this – as long as you are really sure you know what you are doing.
According to the article, Berlin is today the very unique, creative and bustling capital of Germany. It is a capital that is very different to the concepts that most people have of capitals – not everyone would be in love with her, but those who can appreciate what she has to offer, falls truly, madly and deeply in love.
This is the lesson the Berlin article has taught me...doom is really the beginning of boom (if you possess the right attitude and regularly check that the attitude in question is indeed still moving you in the direction you want), and that if you intend to be different, you will have to be prepared to deal with the fact that you will invite controversy (not necessarily in a good way all the time), and not everyone will love you (but those who do truly do).
And last but not least, even if your so-called chosen direction is "unpredictable and different", you still have got to know exactly what you are doing (even if it may seems to others you are just making a mad dash to nowhere).Heehee sorry if I got too preachy...hahaha ignore me if it sounds totally irrelevant to you...I am just triggered off by how nicely your current situation fits in with the lesson I learnt from the Berlin article and thought it would be nice to share it with you."
Hahaha.
Saturday, September 16, 2006
Leavin on a jet plane - alone
For some time now, I have been toying with the idea of travelling alone.
There is great joy in travelling with best friends who share your sense of humour and definition of amusement, of course.
But there is also something in travelling alone - make that a certain romance, and a quiet appreciation of the sights and scenes - that travelling in pair/pack simply can't offer.
What's stopping me from taking off on my own and experiencing the table-for-one-please trip somewhere a little further away from home then?
The supernatural.
I really, really, really, can't cope with staying in a hotel room all on my own...let alone take a shower in there. More than one scary movie had warned me that hotel's bathrooms are usually where all the 'actions' begin.
If only I can request to stay in the hotel lobby or something...and get a staff to accompany me to my twice-daily showers in an unoccupied room.
That would be so perfect.
There is great joy in travelling with best friends who share your sense of humour and definition of amusement, of course.
But there is also something in travelling alone - make that a certain romance, and a quiet appreciation of the sights and scenes - that travelling in pair/pack simply can't offer.
What's stopping me from taking off on my own and experiencing the table-for-one-please trip somewhere a little further away from home then?
The supernatural.
I really, really, really, can't cope with staying in a hotel room all on my own...let alone take a shower in there. More than one scary movie had warned me that hotel's bathrooms are usually where all the 'actions' begin.
If only I can request to stay in the hotel lobby or something...and get a staff to accompany me to my twice-daily showers in an unoccupied room.
That would be so perfect.
Monday, June 19, 2006
Compliments from client give me wings - but I nearly got branded as a bimbo!
Hang on a second.
Let me anchor myself properly before I begin.
You see, I have been working on various jobs of various genres for this particular biggie client ever since I started working for my heavenly-cum-homely company.
Years passed as I try to hone my copywriting skills and tame my brain day after day after day.
Then one fine day, compliments from them started coming my way...obviously, elation is an understatement.
And then it happened.
One member of the client came down for a meeting at my office...and told my colleague she would like to meet me.
My client would like to see the face behind the works and the face in question looked like death warmed over - how nice.
I panicked.
I squealed to the colleague having the meeting with said client, "NOOOOOO...I LOOKED LIKE A PIECE OF SHIT!"
And then I began a mad rush to search for foundation, concealer, toothbrush, toothpaste...
Then I waited.
And waited.
And I saw the client leaving.
My colleague had sent her away, out of kindness for me...I did tell her I would rather not meet her when I looked like a piece of shit, right?
Oh no.
Thankfully, the client reappeared a few moments later to collect some stuff she accidentally left behind, and having clarified my stand with my colleague (out of earshot of the client, of course), I was finally introduced.
Phew.
I was at fault.
I should have watched my words.
I just did not expect to my colleague to take those words quite so seriously. I mean, did she really think I would find it acceptable to turn down a client's request to meet me? Especially when the client did know that I was in the office at the time?
Good thing everything worked out in the end.
And I am happy.
Let me anchor myself properly before I begin.
You see, I have been working on various jobs of various genres for this particular biggie client ever since I started working for my heavenly-cum-homely company.
Years passed as I try to hone my copywriting skills and tame my brain day after day after day.
Then one fine day, compliments from them started coming my way...obviously, elation is an understatement.
And then it happened.
One member of the client came down for a meeting at my office...and told my colleague she would like to meet me.
My client would like to see the face behind the works and the face in question looked like death warmed over - how nice.
I panicked.
I squealed to the colleague having the meeting with said client, "NOOOOOO...I LOOKED LIKE A PIECE OF SHIT!"
And then I began a mad rush to search for foundation, concealer, toothbrush, toothpaste...
Then I waited.
And waited.
And I saw the client leaving.
My colleague had sent her away, out of kindness for me...I did tell her I would rather not meet her when I looked like a piece of shit, right?
Oh no.
Thankfully, the client reappeared a few moments later to collect some stuff she accidentally left behind, and having clarified my stand with my colleague (out of earshot of the client, of course), I was finally introduced.
Phew.
I was at fault.
I should have watched my words.
I just did not expect to my colleague to take those words quite so seriously. I mean, did she really think I would find it acceptable to turn down a client's request to meet me? Especially when the client did know that I was in the office at the time?
Good thing everything worked out in the end.
And I am happy.
A significant day in my life...perhaps a life-changing one.
Last Friday was a significant day in my life.
Many of my friends got quite excited over it.
I wore a frilly girly dress for the first time in years.
And it is a 100% interpretation of femininess without my usual funk or rock touches.
I do not even do skirts (except on occasions when I had to be a 'jie mei' to my friends or colleagues), let alone a frilly girly dress, which explained their disbelief and excitement.
"Jian Huo, serious ah?! I find it hard to believe, take some pictures and send it to me?!"
"ARE YOU SERIOUS???!!! THIS I GOT TO SEE!!!"
"What happened???!!!"
"WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!"
Hmmm.
Well...I am proud to say that I think I pulled it off quite competently.
A new-found friend that night told me that, on first impression, she thought I was one of those really girlish, really sweet kinda girl.
See? Told you I pulled it off quite competently.
In fact, I think I might go the way of sweet in my styling from now on.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
Just kidding.
Then again, I just might.
We shall see.
Many of my friends got quite excited over it.
I wore a frilly girly dress for the first time in years.
And it is a 100% interpretation of femininess without my usual funk or rock touches.
I do not even do skirts (except on occasions when I had to be a 'jie mei' to my friends or colleagues), let alone a frilly girly dress, which explained their disbelief and excitement.
"Jian Huo, serious ah?! I find it hard to believe, take some pictures and send it to me?!"
"ARE YOU SERIOUS???!!! THIS I GOT TO SEE!!!"
"What happened???!!!"
"WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!"
Hmmm.
Well...I am proud to say that I think I pulled it off quite competently.
A new-found friend that night told me that, on first impression, she thought I was one of those really girlish, really sweet kinda girl.
See? Told you I pulled it off quite competently.
In fact, I think I might go the way of sweet in my styling from now on.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
Just kidding.
Then again, I just might.
We shall see.
I had firecrackers in my ears!
I went for my virgin ear candling session today.
It was a spur-of-the-moment decision after my facial and thus, without having done any research or asking around, I had absolutely no idea what to expect.
And I certainly did not expect to have firecrackers going off in my ears.
It was unnerving alright, but not exactly uncomfortable. The uneasiness stemmed more from the fear of all the cackling and popping sounds that hovered at the top of my head from the burning of the candle rather than from the procedure itself.
In fact, once I got over the shock, it was pretty enjoyable. The therapist got me to tilt my head to lie on my ear and a candle was inserted into the other one. She then lit the candle and all the cackling and popping began. As those were going on, she gently massaged my head and especially the area around my ear, presumably to encourage the gunk to be sucked up.
I did a casual check on google later and there seems to be two general schools of thoughts with regard to ear candling - those who advocate it, and those who are against.
Anyway, I learnt that I am supposed to experience a heightened sense of hearing due to all the gunk that were cleared. Well, it hasn't happened yet, so far.
Next time, I will ask them to do an autopsy on the candle to show me the gunk that came out.
I can't wait!
It was a spur-of-the-moment decision after my facial and thus, without having done any research or asking around, I had absolutely no idea what to expect.
And I certainly did not expect to have firecrackers going off in my ears.
It was unnerving alright, but not exactly uncomfortable. The uneasiness stemmed more from the fear of all the cackling and popping sounds that hovered at the top of my head from the burning of the candle rather than from the procedure itself.
In fact, once I got over the shock, it was pretty enjoyable. The therapist got me to tilt my head to lie on my ear and a candle was inserted into the other one. She then lit the candle and all the cackling and popping began. As those were going on, she gently massaged my head and especially the area around my ear, presumably to encourage the gunk to be sucked up.
I did a casual check on google later and there seems to be two general schools of thoughts with regard to ear candling - those who advocate it, and those who are against.
Anyway, I learnt that I am supposed to experience a heightened sense of hearing due to all the gunk that were cleared. Well, it hasn't happened yet, so far.
Next time, I will ask them to do an autopsy on the candle to show me the gunk that came out.
I can't wait!
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